limp banana
on the kitchen counter
sex
life
sex
life
like it is separate from some other life
yesterday lying on my yoga mat i frantically wanked three times
foetal position
white school girl knickers
baggy with wear
didn’t think of you
did for a second but
it was distracting
thought about watching porn but it didn’t seem very zen
you reduced your beard by half and started vaping and now i think you are perhaps an entirely different person
soft-jawed
weightier
heavier in my heart
you look like your mum
wonder when it all got quite so bad
in dark hours
wad of duvet wedged between our bodies
you are very far away from me
you are far away
wonder when it all got quite so sad
kissed your neck
sensually i thought
you laughed
not talking
not talking
not talking anymore
wonder when you’ll be home tonight
can’t sleep
so tired
wonder when you’ll be coming home
nextdoor are fucking
and i’m so fucking tired
wonder whether i still love you or
just really like your cooking
wonder whether i still love you or
just really
like
you
sometimes
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